i've had this live journal account since forever, and i never write in it at all.
maybe if i post how i feel for the world to see..it'll make things remotely better?
hmmm.
i guess i'll just have to try.


as of late.
everything has been a real fun fest.
my boyfriend has treated me like i'm a really person, and it's something i'm not very used to. we've been going out for about 4 months and a couple of weeks. i Love him to no end.

right now, my best friend doesn't even consider me as her friend and it makes me feel like a total douche. where in this situation that where her mom is made at mine..so we don't get to see each other that much. She asked me if we could hang on a day that i already had plans on, and just because i asked if we could do it the next day she say i'm making up excuses.
i really have no idea what to do.
if she wants our friendship to go to crap over something as stupid as that ,i'm not even gonna bother fixing anything.
but i'm really sorry if i've been an ass to you Monique booboo.

on a different note.
i've been wanting to change back into the old Courtney i used to know.
right now i've been failing miserably..but i'm getting back into my old self.
the person who i am now..is always so full of insecurities and just basically downs herself, and everything that's in her life.
it's no bueno.
i just need time.
only time can tell right?
welllllll.
i think that's enough ranting for today!
:D

<3 Courtney